New Obsessions

My life seems to be one obsession after another, I quickly get bored and move on. New things come into my life and I suck them dry for all their worth. I am pretty sure by the end of this post I will have a new obsession I move on that quick. However for now (May 26th) I will talk about some things that are rocking my world.

The Office US

I have mentioned this show in a previous post, I am in love with it. In the space of discovering it a few months ago I have watched every episode at least 3 times. I never thought I would love a show as much as I love this again. My favourite characters are Jim and Pam for reasons I have previously mentioned, but with such an eclectic group of characters I am constantly entertained.

RuPaul's Drag Race - Season 6

I am in love with this show, it basically encapsulates everything I love in a reality show. This season did not disappoint, it may have even upped the stakes a touch. Never before have I struggled with picking a favourite, normally there is a stand out who I support all the way. With this season out of the final three I didn't mind who won. I was so happy for Bianca and I know we will see a lot more from Adore and Courtney. I do have a bit of a crush on Adore so I will be keeping an eye out for her.

Veep
Julia Louis-Dreyfus never disappoints, she can't do any wrong in my eyes; in real life as with her character choices. This show doesn't sound like something I would normally like - its about American politics. I barely know what is happening with British politics (shamefully). However I decided to watch this because of Julia and boy am I glad I did. It is absolutely hilarious, Julia plays Vice President Selina Meyers. Selina never wanted to be Veep and has her eyes firmly set on the Presidents chair. With her not giving a shit attitude and amazing supporting cast I am hooked.

Frasier
It was a slow afternoon one day so I went to my bestie (Netflix) and looked for something to do and their it was; Frasier. I remember this show from my youth and always had a chuckle so I thought why not watch it from the beginning again. Beyond happy I did, its like a whole new sitcom has been released for me. I don't remember anything really from the first time round so its all new jokes and scenarios. I am in love with Frasier and Nile's eccentricities, Daphne's naivety and Roz's quick wit. I feel all grown up watching this show now, I think I am finally appreciating adult comedy.

Big Brother Canada 2
I can't begin to tell you how much better this setup is better than the British equivalent. Yes we have the amazing and beautiful Emma Willis to present ours, but thats the only part we are winning in (not to put down the Canadian presenter, its just I have a big love for Emma). The housemates were all great, love them or hate them. With their setup its 100% more of a game, its all strategy. You will hear '... for my game' endlessly, and you have to respect it - it is a literal competition. When it came to winning I wanted Neda to win, but she got bested by her partner in crime - but John was a very deserving winner.

Music
Sia - Chandelier
Sam Smith - Leave Your Lover
Miranda Lambert and Carrie Underwood - Something Bad
Lady Antebellum - Bartender
The Fault in Our Stars Soundtrack
Lily Allen - Sheezus

I want a 'Jim-and-Pam-Relationship'

I was way behind with this show, in fact it finished before I even watched the first episode. I was sceptical, I watched the first episode of the english version of 'The Office'. It didn't get me and I it. Unfortunately a lot of Ricky Gervais' comedy goes right over my head. However my best friend (Netflix) recommended this to me due to my interests in 'Parks and Recreation' (Amy Poehler's amazing show). I thought why not, I don't have a social life to contend with so I have time to watch a 9 series show. After the first episode I was hooked, hello to a new binge. I watched every single episode in an extremely short amount of time, and then for some reason I then watched it backwards.

There are many great things about this show from the extreme characters to the so-real-its-awkward moments. For me the best thing about this show is the Jim and Pam romance. Its starts off with Pam being in a relationship with someone else and Jim been a cool single guy, but there is something there. They have this amazing bond that has grown from the love of pranks, air high fives and stolen glances. They have a great friendship that many would find hard to understand and often be perceived as something more. Then (SPOILER ALERT) in season 3 they actually get together, Pam calls off her wedding and they finally admit their love for each other. 

Their relationship is written so perfectly through out the next 6 seasons. They have their ups and downs but throughout it all they have love. I can honestly say I cried at many points watching them. Jim's little glances at the camera when Pam says or does something are beautiful, Pam constantly looking at Jim with nothing but love in her eyes. The wedding was so good, when they are on the boat under Niagara Falls and Pam leans in to Jim, Jim looks at the camera with nothing but love and happiness in his eyes - I bawled. When Pam blames Jim for the breakdown in her parents relationship because of something he said, Pam finds out its because Jim described their relationship so perfectly that Pam's Dad realised he didn't have that with his wife; Pam says the most beautiful line :

Everything they are is for each other, they are best friends as well as lovers. They have everything a relationship should have in my opinion. I want someone who I can tell my darkest thoughts with, who I can trust with all my secrets and weird habits. I don't think that that this a big ask. Jim and Pam did it. I know they are fictional, but I also know some couples will watch them and feel like they have been portrayed on TV. Watching them there is never a thought that one is more lucky to have the other than the other, they are lucky that they found each other. They were friends for four years before anything remotely happened, I may not be totally out of luck yet ...

There are so many highlights to this relationship - the teapot, the DVD, finding out they're expecting, the wedding, the proposal, the first kiss, Jim asking her out for the first date, Pam admitting it was because of Jim she called of her own wedding - just so many I could sit and talk about them for hours. What makes this relationship even better for me is that it wasn't based on physical connection, (sure they are both hot) it was personality. When you meet that one person who you just click with you don't give up, Jim didn't. People say friends shouldn't become lovers. Why not? Yes, you could risk losing a friendship, but you could end up with so much more, you could end up with everything. It only takes one person. 

  

"I didn’t watch the whole documentary. After a few episodes, it was too painful. I kept wanting to scream at Pam. It took me so long to do so many important things. It’s just hard to accept that I spent so many years being less happy than I could have been. Jim was five feet from my desk, and it took me four years to get to him. It’d be great if people saw this documentary and learned from my mistakes. Not that I’m a tragic person. I’m really happy now. But… it would just make my heart soar, if someone out there saw this and she said to herself, "Be strong. Trust yourself, love yourself. Conquer your fears. Just go after what you want. And act fast, because life just isn’t that long." - Pam Beesly Halpert

"Four years ago, I was just a guy who had a crush on a girl, who had a boyfriend. And I had to do the hardest thing that I’ve ever had to do, which was just to… wait. Don’t get me wrong, I flirted with her. Pam, I can now admit in front of friends and family, that I do know how to make a photocopy — didn’t need your help that many times. And, uh, do you remember how long it took you to teach me how to drive stick? I’ve been driving stick since high school, so… For a really long time that’s all I had. Little moments with a girl who saw me as a friend. And, a lot of people told me I was crazy to wait this long for a date with a girl I work with, but I think, even then I knew that… I was waiting for my wife." - Jim Halpert

Wanna know a secret?

We all have secrets, some we eventually share but most we keep to ourselves for fear of ridicule or fear of people knowing the real us. Isn't that a damn shame? We should be able to be who we are in front of everybody. Unfortunately it can't be the way. I know for a fact I have secrets that I can't tell certain people. Some people know, but they have been entrusted with not telling the certain person involved.

I try and be as honest as I possibly can. Although recently my honesty has been put under the spotlight. Apparently I have been too honest with my feelings in some certain situations. So quickly I am learning when to shut up, it is hard because you expect to be able to trust certain people with your emotions - I have learnt that you can't. People can be selfish and two faced with you. On one hand they want you to be truthful, but woah there Mary, don't be too honest, even if it doesn't affect anything. I am quite an emotional person, I often hide it with sarcasm and I have found out that there is no time for sarcasm in this world. So now its fake smiles and small conversations.

Back to my original thought on secrets. I wish I could share everything I was thinking and wanting. I wish that I wasn't so fearful of repercussions. I wish I could turn to a certain person and empty my guts, not in a gross way with vomit but in the more metaphorical beautiful way where I reveal everything. However sometimes you have to keep something to yourself to allow someone else to be happy. It is quite a selfless act but when you want a special someone to be happy, you sacrifice your own happiness.

I hate having secrets because I truly believe that been open and honest with people is the best way to live. How else can you have a relationship with someone if they don't know everything about you, even your dark side? I would like to start an initiative here today. Lets be honest. Just that, lets be honest. If anyone I know wants to know anything just ask me. I don't want to be afraid to say anything anymore, I have nothing to lose I don't think, and if someone was to lose something because they were honest, then was it really worth keeping?

Also I would like to invite anyone to tell me anything. I love knowing people's stories. They are literally my favourite thing. I love to learn how people tick and what makes them the way they are.
This is probably what makes www.postsecret.com one of my favourite websites. We all have this world inside of us, and I think it is time to share a little bit of it.